I knew I was in pain , I didn’t know I was Broken

This is not me in the photo nor is the photo mine-it was taken out of the stock photos for free 🫢

These past few weeks sure have been a learning experience for me. A painful one at that. I can’t exactly explain for sure what is going on with me , but I get it mostly.

Back in October I fund a lump in my breast. I knew it was different than anything I had felt before. I decided that the fastest way I was going to get a mammogram done was going to tell my Rheumatologist. My Rheumatologist is my doctor who is able to get things done fastest. I also already had an appointment set for mid November.

I had known I was not running on 100, I had the lump and I know of my Rheumatoid issues, I wasn’t terribly surprised when my kids got a cold just before Thanksgiving and I wound up with a killer cough lasted like 8 -9 weeks. However I saw my Doc , she felt lump, got mammogram set up and we had hoped to get it all done before the year was out , but holidays got in the way and we didn’t get to Biopsy my lump until end of January. As this time was passing I thought I was always tired mostly from that cough.

One day I was cleaning the house and went out to my front porch to toss the trash. Something I do so regularly. Why this time my foot didn’t follow proper? Did my Sandel get stuck on something ? Was I one foot faster than the other? I have no clue , but the next thing I knew I was on the concrete , on my side my ribs my hip! 😖

I was really bruised and for sure my ribs were cracked. I did nothing but ice and sleep and take pain medicine. Back n for Tylenol/Ibuprofen and it hurt and it healed. I was able to get around and I was semi tolerable to the pain. I had things to do and I was able to get them done.

Finally it was time for my Lumpectomy surgery, at this time they did a lymph node study to see if cancer spread, from that test, it appeared that it did not spread. Well test was only as accurate as a test can be.

Fast forward a few weeks. I heal from my surgery. I am getting ready to start chemotherapy. My body is hurting more each day.my back, legs. But now it’s bad. My hip was hurting and hurting and then I couldn’t put pressure on my leg. I kept stretching, I was thinking that this was going to make whatever in my back that was popped out-push back in. I was stretching and heard a loud pop and my ribs started hurting all over again.

The morning , I was to start chemotherapy I was in such bad shape, they sent me to the Emergency room instead. I spent the whole day and night there test after test and x rays and ct scans mris bone scans – you name it . They ran it . I didn’t get all results same days.

I spent the next 14 days inpatient. I had two surgeries, one Kriroplasty and one hip replacement. They can fix the ribs. So my cancer spread to my back. Is not operable there. Cancer made all that weak. Broke my Femur, my L4 a couple ribs L4 and L5 were crushed I think I will get good documents when I go for follow up. The hospital tells you about a million things.

I have been home now for a few days and I don’t yet have the needs to get my self comfortable, I know I have appointments later this week. I hope that I can drive myself. If I can’t I need to remind myself it takes time to heal. But boy I never would have guessed how quick , cancer could spread and cause all this grief. I am pretty strong. I just have to adjust to the pain and try to get insurance to pay for pain medication.

If you think 💭 hmm 🤔 maybe I broke my back? Possibly you did . Not a bad idea to go to the hospital….

I wish I would had gone sooner… oops 😬 says stubborn woman!

Hard to just say.

These past few weeks, have been a lot to take in. I knew I was starting chemotherapy. I knew I was going into it, feeling way too much pain. My back was getting weaker and I was losing my ability to walk.

The morning of my treatment, my peeps, in the Cancer center sent me to the Emergency Room instead. I know that I was in excruciating pain, but I did not know the extent of damage to my health. The cancer spread all over my back, I had broken 🦴 femur, fractured L-4 , fractured hip, and ribs. Most of this was from the cancer although a small part probably started when a fell 2 months back. I had healed. So the stress fractures are more the issue.

I now have some cement in my spine and a half a new hip. At some point, some of the pain will subside. I am looking forward to that. A big part of what is on my mind, is I guess random.

It is obvious if I want to live , I should do everything in my power to live a healthy life. However , what proof of this makes anything to benefit me. Actually none, however I will take the odds, I will stick positive and try really hard to not be my own problem. But one thing I’m not doing… dwelling .. I do way to much of it. Anxiety going to make that happen … I am not running this entire crazy train. I am driving though